What makes it even more difficult is that there is a part of me that is capable of so many things when I’m not bound up in this mental straightjacket. Whatever it is that I want to learn or do, I can…when I’m functional.
But that makes it even more confusing to others. How can a person who is so capable be so non-functional?
I try my best to explain – but how exactly do you explain something so peculiar? How can I communicate just how overwhelming these challenges are? The brutal truth of the matter is that there really is no way to do so. . .
And so, at least for the time being, I continue to reside in this mental purgatory, however unjust that may be. I do my best to remind myself that my focus is on healing, not trying and repeatedly failing to explain my behavior to those who cannot comprehend why I act the way I do.
I completely understand why they don’t get it, and am eternally grateful for how much love and compassion that is given to me for an invisible injury. I am so grateful for those who believe the existence of my pain without being able to understand it.
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